Been there, done that. For me, I guess you could say its a celebration. I've gotten over it all. I won't be going down that path anymore. I've moved on from that past.

I can keep that promise now. I'm not scared of losing everything that way anymore. I'm no longer capable of falling for it. The devil can no longer bring me down with it anymore.

How did I manage it?

Mercy. A promise. And a love that taught me the least I could do in return was to be the person he wants me to be.

Not that it wasn't...hard to do. Because it was, in so many ways. But I finally have control now. After being manipulated for so long, I've learned to not fall for it again.

Seeing him so stressed out and frustrated with himself...in a way it was funny. Not to be cruel, but more...laughing at myself. Like a sillier version of myself. Of everyone, actually. In a way it was also like seeing a reflection of the past. And in another way...feeling the exact opposite of his frustration. Because I was at peace this time. I'm not scared. I trust myself now, and I trust myself to be able to protect him...if thats what you call it. I'm free of the frustration and worry I once had for myself. Which is why I'm not worried about that about him either.

And this was why I was able to fully enjoy my day ^^

Mmm...

I wonder if it'll give away too much if he reads this.

Or luckily, he'll just be confused and forget all about it. (: