Managed to sneak out and head to Nubcake's yesterday ;o Zehrs, car racing (won 2nd ! FTW.), and that bubble game I always loved when I was little but never could play ;o Pizza and watched digimon movie...time actually went by quite fast. I remember him running downstairs "ITS ALREADY 12:40! D:" Scared me x.x

After movie...fell asleep with him for a little bit ;o Very comfy as usual :3 Kept wondering...was Roycey there at that time? Haha...wonder how sketch it would've looked xD

Hmm...lying on his chest and hearing his heart beat VERY FAST ;o Wonder EXACTLY what he was thinking that time :3 Got him cornered, tickle attack ;o Couldn't even escape, buahaha ~

And then he REALLY took me by surprise. o-o At first I legit thought he was just teasing. Didn't even know what to answer him, didn't wanna make myself look like an idiot if he was only teasing >.> I know what he means now by worrying he'll scare me away. I was worried silly wondering what his reaction would be...;o I chickened out in the end xD But now that I know...now that he TOLD me...

And now when I really think about it...he's always so scared of scaring me away. But...reality is he cares so much. Guys pretty much never do...sometimes not even considering the girl's protests =/ Brings back thoughts that just pisses me off more x.x Eugh. But yeah. He cares so much. Sometimes I don't even think I deserve it. But yes, I'm very happy. (: He probably doesn't even know it, either. I don't feel scared of him. I can't imagine why I ever would. (Unless he turned into him suddenly >.>) Its more the exact opposite. Simply, I feel safe. (:

And yes, very hax how it just happened to be the 22nd. xD Really wonder what'll happen on the next "2"...:3 Hmmm, guess I'll have to wait and find out ;o Kekeke...still remembering that one thing he said...:P (gory details removed :3)

GAH I HATE WHEN I LOSE A TRAIN OF THOUGHT WHEN CONTINUING A POST. -.-

Anyways....a very epic day :3 Mostly now...just wishing he can really understand that he can't scare me away x.x Then again, its more of a feeling, not just words. I guess he can't really fully know. But GAH. But hey, even if he does fear it, clearly he knows to overcome his fears :3 still never did tell him what I was thinking at the time, haha. (btw, this is one of those questions I wont answer :P)

Blahh. Its 3am. Losing coherency. Wishing really bad he was here right now (very good sleep ;o). Which somehow reminded me of the...uhm, interesting dream from last night. x3 I think I'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms x.x Eughh. Miss him very much already Dx Havent survived a weekend without him there in a while...oh joy. x_x Considering he'll be there, too. Guess I'm skipping sunday movie then. Ghey. -.-'' Can't wait to see my Nubcake again...
5 more days. ♥

posted by Nubcakechan @ 10:35 AM