Insanely sick today. Woke up this morning and the room was spinning. Huge migrane, arghh. Missed my history test and a couple useless classes. Just feel like crap all day. x.x
Feeling really guilty these days. Knowing I'm distracting him so much...sigh. And getting him into all the trouble. =/
In so many ways, its not fair. I dont have nearly as much stress when it comes to worrying about my future. I can easily decide where I wanna go, choose my future, and watch myself work towards it and have it come true. Why should I be able to get things so easily, and him have to worry about making it so much?
God, why can't you give him what you've given me? x.x
I wish I could do something to help, rather than just spend every moment knowing hes stressing himself to the max every day and night. Rather than knowing he's worrying nonstop. Unsure about what to do, what'll happen. Its not fair that there's people just like him who have time for everything. Time for gaming, relaxing, having fun. I wish I could help. =/
Funny how I always end up being useless during times like these. During tough times. =.=''
I guess the only thing I CAN do is just...stay away. And not be any more of a distraction.
Staying away for a while...off msn and etc. Argh, isn't it hard enough to not be able to see him as much?
I guess this is testing self control to the max. x_x How fun.
I did say I'd wait for him though. And I will. And I'll prove I will.
This is gonna be painful and hard. x.x See how long I can hold up for. As long as it'll do him good, its worth it.
I'll start tomorrow. =/
Ga-yow please, my NubcakeKun. <3