Yujie, you're an idiot.
You step out of the place you belong.
And try to merge where you don't.
And then great. Only to have reality eventually smack right up in your face that you don't belong there.
And then you try to turn around. Only to find theres no place there for you anymore.
So what now?
You don't belong anywhere.
How many times in the past has this happened?
Beyond what you can count.
Why are you such an idiot?
Why are you so retarded and naive and just plain stupid?
You constantly throw yourself into these situations. With high standards of expectancy.
And then you end up hurt. Because it turned out negatively.
Because you were dumb in the first place.
You DONT belong here. Stop lying to yourself.
Even when he once convinced you that there was a place you did belong,
turns out he only lied.
Isn't this telling you enough already?
Yet again, more stupidity.
Why can't you just stay put?
Stop stepping outside of the box.
Just stay.
And wait.

posted by Nubcakechan @ 9:50 PM