It'd be nice to know why I'm such a retard nowadays.

Why did my stupid sensitive self have to come up AGAIN?

Frig. Don't even know what it WAS this time. Just me being friggin ghey as heck.

There wasn't even any secret. Just something I didn't want repeated. Wasn't even trying to HIDE anything.
Heck I dont even REMEMBER what I said that time.
Just Shawn and Herie being their usual messed up selves. And Aaron overheard?

Ughh fml I dont remember I dont remember I don't remember I dont remember I don't remember I don't remember~~~

Just struck me when Nubcake started saying "tsk tsk I don't even know what to say to that...>.>" . Makes me feel so damn guilty and disappointed in my self GAH.

The heck...T^T
It would help if I could at least REMEMBER what it was ~~ T.T

^ Yeah. I sound like I was drunk. Friigg.
(No, I wasn't.)

I dunno. Dunno whats wrong with me right now =.='' Just feel so...BLAH. Feel like such an idiot...totally screwed up even though he said he was just teasing. Although it sounded partially like he was teasing me and partially he actually was disappointed which makes me feel like a jerk for disappointing him. D:

And now my old stupid self wants to go close myself in my room under the sheets in the dark and live there for the next while. x.x Skipped the whole day today. Didn't wanna get out of bed. Just feel.like.crap.

Aside from that...just feel so unmotivated these days. Completely unmotivated. Had a nightmare last night...different ways of me failing at life. x.x More self disappointment...and then getting chased out by my family saying they didn't want me anymore and threatening to kill me...running off not knowing who to go to.

So dead and alone. So alone. =/